Just Publish
This feels vulnerable: publishing. It always does.
Idea: Just do it when inspired. Schedule publish.
Publish your half-baked thoughts. Publish when it is enough. Done is better than perfect.
So many topics I want to write about!
All the experiences left partially-integrated.
All the Instagram posts never created.
Taiwan. Bangkok. Vietnam. Malaysia. China. Japan. Bali Indonesia! San Francisco event scene!
People of ALIVENESS!
I want to deliver a bottle of vibes!
If I block out time to do smth, I face the resistance and anxiety, struggle through their vice-like grip to follow through my commitment.
Fears of judgment, fears of rejection, fears of failure and hardship and loss. Imaginary fears I set up as projections, because I don’t fully trust myself.
Truth is, I’m scared to communicate.
When writing a Slack message, I might iterate with ChatGPT several times.
I edit or unsend messages more than anyone I know.
Dance with the fear, shake it out, etc
But also harness inspiration, the times when I feel joy and growth.
So I’ll just write now when I feel like it,
edit now when I feel like it,
block out time /later/ to schedule-send.
And then forget about it.
And edit it later. For these are living documents.
Each carries a message, a timeless message in a bottle, no timestamps needed.
Don’t have to commit to a publishing schedule, just publish.
I’m writing for myself. I’m writing to bottle good vibes for myself.
That’s my original motivation behind my codercorgi.substack.com podcast.
I did this. I made this. I built this. And it feels so great.
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Here I could just talk about my fears.
And edit it just enough to feel safe (fear of ruin!)
Change Log
Written in a single fit of inspiration on Apple Notes on my phone after a cold shower.
Published on the spot.
Schedule send.
Changes made since first draft: None.
